An Issue

So as I was sitting in my Composition class going over my research paper, I realized something that is just pathetic. I am doing my paper on how DOMA and denying same-sex couples marriage is creating second class citizens. It really just amazes me that people are so stupid and petty. DOMA is based purely on religious beliefs but how can in enacted when we have separation of church and state? That is best left for another lecture!! Back to what I was saying about stupid people.

What is happening now to our gay and lesbian families is just about the same thing as when we were segregating people based on the color of their skin. I thought our country had moved past such stupidity??? Apparently not.
Who are we or even politicians to deny people the right to be happy and in a loving relationship? Because of these people we are denying benefits to American citizens who deserve to have them. This creates second class citizens.


Are we saying that an American citizen who loves who they love, is not as good as those who have a "normal" lifestyle? Are you really better than they are? Cause in my eyes you are below them. Believe me when I say that the GLBT community is not going to force you to take their lifestyle for your own contrary to what you believe so why try and force them to take yours? We are all suppose to be equal in the eyes of the law but yet we are not

I know this is a subject that is not going to be changed by one openly bisexual lady trying to change the minds of those who may stumble across my pages. But at least I am trying to aid in the fight for equality. Can you say the same for yourself?

Outrage

"This makes me sick, because apparently Walmart doesn't understand what bad P.R. is. Bad P.R. is screwing over one of your employees, just for money. To sum up the situation, a walmart employee was involved in a terrible car accident that left her mentally handicapped. She and her family were able to sue for $477,000 worth of damages which is meant to take care of her for the rest of her life. So they win the case and it looks like everything is going to be OK. But it turns out that walmarts health care plan's fine print says that if any money is received for damages, walmart has the right to take it. And you can bet your damned ass, they're taking the money. $477,000, they are making a huge deal over $477,000. A company that makes over $90 billion a year. And when they were asked for a comment, they said "while her situation is extremely sad, the only way to be fair to everyone else, is to take the money. And when I look at this situation, the first word I think of is not "Fair", oddly enough, it's "Fucked up". The situation is fucked up, so because of this issue, I'm saying fuck walmart.
I'm not going to go to walmart, super walmart, walmart. com, Sam's, or Lowe's. I'm never going to go into a walmart again, besides to visit my friends who happen to work at walmart, but you can bet your sweet as I won't ever buy from that store again, because walmart is fucked up. That's why I think everyone who reads this, shouldn't go to walmart either. I'm not saying "Don't go to walmart" that's ridiculous. All I'm saying is if you think it's a fucked up situation, don't shop at walmart anymore, because if they are going to go ahead and screw over the little guy, what needs to happen is all the little guys need to get together, and send out this story to all there little guy friends, so more people will hear about it, because this is fucking ridiculous. So to all the people who think that the little guy can still have a voice, I have a project for you, if you have a few extra mins, go to the link below and read the story about the women involved in this case, and everything that's happening to her. I want you to send that to as many people as possible. Send it to everyone in your address book, put it in myspace bulletins, facebook bulletins, I don't care, but get it out."



So this is a little something I seen on my myspace today and it has totally pissed me off!!! SO let me start by saying this, I am not agreeing with this in anyway, just posting it to show what I am bitching about!!!

Now on to the fun part. People are sooo fucking stupid! Why would you believe so strongly in something that you would turn against a former employer and bash them after only hearing one side of a story? Just because it was on CNN doesn't mean that it is 100% factual. This a perfect story for them to receive ratings ratings and more ratings! News people lie too ya know or actually bend the truth enough to get the response that they want.

just the other day at my place of work, Walmart, we were discussing this. At first we were just as pissed about it cause we had only read this one article but it wasn't until someone actually did some research, that we found the other part of the story. Since when does walmart own an insurance company? yea, the last time I checked it was never! The article says walmart's health insurance provider not just walmart. So for all of you that know how to read, this is referring to Blue Cross not walmart directly. Yes walmart has policies to follow, but as we found out it was blue cross that was actually pushing the issue.

Walmart was trying to fight the suit but still hand one hand tied behind our backs. so when this poor lady lost her money, it didn't go to walmart, but instead blue Cross.

i never fucking hear about all the good that your local neighborhood Walmart is doing for your community. Walmart donates millions a year to charities and the community that it serves. Plus we take on a task every year that gets us out into the community and giving back. No the only think that you hear about are the evil things that the Big Bad Walmart does.

I have seen first hand what walmart does to help their associates. From fund raising to associate in need funds. I have never worked for a company that cared so much for its employees. So Before you decided to bash someone or a company, maybe you should get ALL the facts. You are fucking with peoples' jobs and lives. You don't have to shop at my store, my company but make sure it is for the right reasons. Not just hearsay!n

Ahh!!! It is good to be back! I mean I say that like I have been gone for years but it really has only been a week.But I miss being about to write like I was getting in the habit into doing. Between being sick, having to go to school and trying to figure out how to make work tolerable again, I am just freaking exhausted! Plus I no longer have a working computer in my house so yea that sucks even more. But anyways I guess I will just make some posts while I am here.

So my old boss from day shift approached me today and asked me a question that I was not expecting. She asked me if I would come back to day shift when one of here full timers transfers. That really floored me cause I wasn't exactly the most loved on that shift. I am seriously considering it although there are more pros on thirds.

Why should I go back to a shift that considered me their work horse or flunky that would do everything that we are suppose to take care of, while they just stand in a group and gossip? I mean I seriously don't think that I should have to put up with the shit that I did when I worked with these people.

I am not sure if it was because I didn't care for grouping together and talking while ignoring the duties of my job or the fact that my decisions were always overrode. Considering that we are all the same level supervisor, they sure as hell changed decisions I made or stop any coachings that I planned on doing.

Besides dealing with the other asshole CSMs, I have to deal with office politics that are worse than the one on thirds. Considering that day shift management would rather holler and yell before finding out all the facts is enough to keep me a way.

but, I could start hanging out with my friends again and continue to just work and go to school. I don't know what I want to do. I mean I really think I want to stay where I am at cause even with the drama that happens, it is soooo much better that the other

Starting to second guess my decision to work on third shift. Yea some would say it is because of a certain manager and a few choice associates but they would be wrong. The reason really is because I miss my friends. Three in the morning and I am up but no one else that I know is so I just sit here, bored. Their lives continue on with out a word from them except for the only one that is on thirds with me. I want to be able to interact again and not feel out of the loop. I guess that is what it is.

Maybe this is just a phase that I will get out of maybe in isn't. I left first/second shift because of certain things that were happening on that shift so I do not wish to return to that shift. Maybe it is time for me to move on from Walmart. Well I dont think that is true cause I love working for that company. I don't know maybe I am just lonely and yearning for my old way of life

I have given up. Given up on everything except the one relationship that has stood the numerous tests that were thrown at it. It is costing me too much energy, stress and heartache to try and maintain things when I am the only one trying. It is one sided and a waste of my time. I have been here for all those that are in my life but when it seems that some only wish to interact with me when they need something.

I am not trying to play the "pity me" part cause that is not what I want. I just wanted genuine relationships with genuine people. Maybe I just need to invest in new people and new relationships.

So I guess I could say that I am going to try and start a new chapter in my life. Those that are meant to be in my life will be while the ones that shouldn't be will be weeded out.

Anytime

I can't remember why we fell apart
From something that was so meant to be
Forever was the promise in our hearts
Now more and more I wonder where you are


Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
I miss you

Still have your picture in a frame
Hear your footsteps down the hall
I swear I hear your voice, driving me insane
How I wish that you would call to say

Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
I miss you

I miss you
I miss you

No more, loneliness and heartache
No more, crying myself to sleep
No more, wondering about tomorrow
Won't you come back to me, come back to me

Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
I miss you

Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
I miss you

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

Well this is just a post to congratulate my friend Jen and her partner, Meghan. They welcomed into the world this morning their first child. Weighing 7 lbs and 1 oz and measuring 19 3/4 Inches, Dylan Michael was born at 4:02 AM today. Once again congrats and I hope they cherish every moment this child blesses their lives.

Once was known, now is lost

A person can only stare at their four walls for so long before the monatony starts taking hold. Where is the human interaction that I once cherished at? I willingly admit that I have to interact with people especially the friends I hold closest to me. Lately, it has just seemed damn near impossible to do. No, I am not just talking about a certain individual, but instead the few choice friends I have as a whole. The only person that I seem to be talking with are my husband, and a chick from work who is hell bent on causing drama for all those that are in her life. I really want wholesome friendships back.

Yea, I know things happen and all and people have their own lives to attend to. But am I the only one that at least attempts to make contact with those that we once held dearest to our hearts?

My best friend is carrying her first child, which is my godchild, and I have spoken to her like maybe 10 minutes tops in about 3 months. And don't even get me started on the others.

Don't even ask about the others! Some i haven't talk to in like 3 months. But all I am saying is can we not reach out to someone that use to be in our lives on the daily basis and just see how they are doing?

I'm ready

I thought that I had lost it or it was hidden from me. I have been searching and praying that I would find it and at last I have found it once again.

Passion

How I have missed it. I mean there was always some there but now it is totally different. It is as if I cannot get enough of his company. I want nothing more to be around him and in his arms. I always dreamt that it would be this great and now it is. Don't get me wrong, our relationship has been great even with our little "roadblocks" but this, this is wonderful!

Since I have found the passion that has my heart blazing brighter than ever, I am ready. I am ready to start the next chapter in our lives and if I have my way, I will by the end of the year.

I highly recommend that everyone should find the love of their life. The high you get from being in a relationship like that is addicting.

So yes, I am ready. I will never leave your side. There is no one else for me.

Falling

As I stand over the edge taking in the sight that is all around me, I feel a presence approach from behind
Before I have a chance to look there is a gentle push.
As I start to fall I reach out for some one's hand to grab, I start realizing that I am grasping at nothingness. No one is here to lend a hand.
I am falling.

Falling into the unknown and falling into a darkness so cold that I cannot think to bare it alone. Where are my loved ones or my friends to accompany and stop me from falling?

There are some that I have stopped from making this less than graceful flight, plummeting down into a darkened abyss. I am afraid that they may not be here or able to do the same for me.

Soon I shall embrace my fall and welcome it with open arms. Will those that are in my life still be there when I do?

I have come to a crossroad in my life and I am not sure how i want to go about pursuing it. Part of me wants to move away from all that I know and love and try a new experience and part is wanting to stay here. My family lives here and I cannot get past the part where I think my mother needs me here. But Ray keeps at this yearning to move and explore new interesting job he wants. I am not sure what I want to do. I can see the pros and the cons of each side. I really don't want to be responsible for making ray give up on a job that he wants but i also don't want to have to move because of it. HELP!!!

As the days go by I wonder if you still remember me? Do you think of me as often as I think of you? It has been almost two years since I have seen you but I remember every detail about you. Your smile, the warm and friendly aura that surrounded you how I miss being around you. I wish everyday that I could have another day with you but I know that it will not happen. For now all I can do is look at my mental picture of and continue to have talks with you that only I can hear. I miss you and hope you still think of me

yes, my computer is still down

so Yesterday I decided to try and get on my computer since the keyboard is finally fixed and what would you expect, I have been having nothing but problems. I ran my little anti~virus thiny just because it was time to and it informed me that I had some updates but needed to restart my computer. So I turned off my computer and waited a few minutes before turning it back on. And waited and waited, but it never came back on. Then I started to smell this burning plastic smell so I think my computer has bitten the dust which really sucks cause I have to do a 6 page paper by next week, yea I know I procrastinate tooo much. But anyways that was a little bit of rambling.

Memorial For Eric Hall

A Florida medical examiner today confirmed that a body found Sunday in a culvert in Charlotte County, Fla., is that of Eric Hall, a former Marine from Jeffersonville who was severely wounded in Iraq three years ago.

Hall had suffered a severe hip injury, a broken leg and nerve damage to his arm in a roadside bomb explosion in Fallujah. He also had been suffering from post traumatic stress disorder.

Hall, 24, was last seen on Feb. 3, when he left the house of a relative he had been visiting near Punta Gorda, Fla., saying it was surrounded. His motorcycle was found later on a road, on its side and still running.

A massive search in the area where the motorcycle had been found was unsuccessful until Sunday, when a volunteer who had been helping in the search noticed a strong odor coming from the culvert. A badly decomposed body was removed later that day about 50 yards into the culvert.

The Charlotte County Medical Examiner has identified the body as Hall’s using his military medical records.

Hall’s mother, Becky Hall of Jeffersonville who has been in Florida helping organize the search effort, has scheduled a news conference at noon today, and a military memorial service has been scheduled for noon tomorrow at the Faith Lutheran Church at 4005 Palm Dr. in Punta Gorda.

Eric Hall’s father, Kevin Hall of Jeffersonville, said 400 people—many of them military veterans—had said they would participate in the event.


There is to be a memorial for him tomorrow, Sunday, at 11 am at coots funeral home in Jeffersonville.

WEll I have not been on in here in a few days to post. Well I actually haven't been on my computer at all. There was something wrong with my keyboard so I couldn't exactly without it! (Actually it just needed batteries) But anyways on with the show!

Senseless Tragedy

So you all know that I have been posting updates about Eric Hall on here right? Well That has just gotten me thinking about how in the hell it came about that he was ever in a situation like this one. I mean it is a good chance that the body they found was Eric! I mean we weren't like the closest friends in school but he was still a classmate that I knew and interacted with. I mean it breaks my heart to have to think about what his family is going through. And heaven help me if I piss someone off, but all because he went to serve his country and the best they could do for him was throw him back into civilian life without any treatment. I mean he has been fighting tooth and nail to get the money he deserves so he can just live.

Eric had PTS and I really don't feel he was given the medical attention that he should have received for it. And not just Eric there are many more of our soldiers who are fighting and dying for our country, and there are veterans who have done the same that all have some sort of medical/mental condition that they are left with the rest of their lives. They have flashbacks, anxiety, I mean everything. So why is that the government they went to serve cannot do any justice to them when they come home, battered and broken? It is not like they do not have the money or resources to help these men, the heroes of our country.

Granted there are those who say that we do help by giving them prescriptions. Prescriptions that only sedate them and do not fix the problem. We cannot throw a pill at every issue that comes from doing a tour. It just seems like the cure all for the military and that aren't smart enough to realize it isn't working or they just won't open their eyes to see.

When are we going to make this stop? There is no reason that people like Eric and any other vet should have to come home and live like this. It is just a shame that we cannot take care of these people any better than this. I wish that Eric could have received the attention he needed instead of having a pill thrown at him. Then maybe I wouldn't have to attend his funeral because he was thrusted back into everyday life, courtesy of the the Military.

Ohio Valley Weather

So I started my vacation on Thursday and this is a list of what I have done;
played guitar hero III
Watched tv
Played some more Guitar Hero
Went about half a mile to eat some where
Came home
Played more guitar hero and a little Virtual Fighter
Slept
slept
and slept some more.
went to my in-laws for about 6 "wonderful" hours
guitar hero
slept

Now that is really really borin! It is now monday and I did not go to school, have not really done anything on my vacation and only have 2 days left. What a waste of a vacation. yes my husband and i did have plans to go somewhere but thanks to living in the Ohio Valley, they were cancelled. So I guess that I am done whining about it. Just going to have to make the most out of my last few days before I return to the monotomy of work.