I have given up. Given up on everything except the one relationship that has stood the numerous tests that were thrown at it. It is costing me too much energy, stress and heartache to try and maintain things when I am the only one trying. It is one sided and a waste of my time. I have been here for all those that are in my life but when it seems that some only wish to interact with me when they need something.

I am not trying to play the "pity me" part cause that is not what I want. I just wanted genuine relationships with genuine people. Maybe I just need to invest in new people and new relationships.

So I guess I could say that I am going to try and start a new chapter in my life. Those that are meant to be in my life will be while the ones that shouldn't be will be weeded out.