Once Again

I am amazed that I am right back in this situation. I am sitting here, wondering if I have done anything wrong to cause this. Cause the seperation and the feelings of being unwanted around that I have right now. It just seems that all communication may have been broken off. I don't like feeling like I might not have the right to reach out and try to talk nor the loneliness. I told myself that nothing would change for the worse, only for the better but I guess I should have known better. I could just be wrong and making this all up in my head, but in order to be making this all up, wouldn't there have to already be a suggestion there? I mean that only makes sense when you sit and think about it. But anyways, getting off subject.

For the past few days I have been constantly checking certain addys to see if I may have an email from those that are involved but there has yet to be one. It is esepecially bad when I have tried contacting. i don't want it to seem like I am beggingfor attention or even wanting the attenting. I just want it to be like it used to be even though that I know it is not even possible for things to go back to way they used to be