All is lost

Read, Read, Read
Decipher, Decipher, Decipher

This is all I seem capable of doing these days. Even though I like to think that I am pretty good at the second part, I still get lost and confused on somethings. Reading your words of despair, sadness, depression and just overall darkness has me worried. What has happened since? Thinking everyday about what you are doing and what is going on. Every time I talk to you I can sense something. Something that is troubling you and causing a dark time in your life. It may not even just be one thing but there is something. Our chats are always brief so I can never accomplish anything. I feel useless and that I have let you down. I am pretty sure that I have let you down and I do apologize. I know that an apology will not fix things but it is all that I can offer right now.

Have you given up? I wish you wouldn't cause all is not lost! I am trying to reach out but cannot find a hand reaching back to grasp. Should I just give up? Let it wither away til there is nothing left but a memory? That is something that I find almost impossible to do but it is slowly looking like a reality that I might need to face.