Frustration

You may scream and you may yell but that doesn't make you any better. You may blame me and say that I am the only one to blame but that doesn't make it true. None of this makes you any better than more or not responsible. It is your account that I just happen to be depositing my money into, i see that now. How was I to honestly believe that I would be able to actually have access to "our" money without having to ask your permission? Yea you may say that it isn't about asking permission but about communication. Well I told you how much I spent and I do not see a problem in me being able to spend 20 on something as frivolous as what I did today just like I don't see the problem in spending two hours with a friend of mine. You could have relayed to me the amount that we have but you have yet to do that in the past month. It is only after I have spent money on something needed or not that you start to bitch and moan about that account. What happen to us both taking responsibility? I guess that really meant just me right? I am sorry that I actually thought I could spend a total of 45 on myself, what in the hell was I thinking? As far as you never getting anything, well whose fault is that? I have tried to get you to get something you want but you don't. Medical bills, school books, and phone bills are not elective so you cannot hold that over my head as your reason for never being able to get anything. In response I could say that same thing about your 25% that will be starting soon but I don't. Why because I Know that you aren't choosing to do this for your enjoyment but because of it being a mandatory obligation. I am not sorry that I pay something towards my Dr bills, school bills, or telephone. That is what I call being responsible. But alas you shall worry no more. I will do what you want me to and start asking your permission or maybe I should have you set up an allowance for me.

I know this is going to probably just piss you off more but really I don't care. It is bullshit the way you acted when you got home and the way you treated me. Then you just go to sleep like nothing was done wrong or said wrong. Nice, really fucking nice. While I am just sitting here, venting, because I am so upset that I cannot even think about sleeping in the same bed as you. Love you too honey.