Post-Op update

So yea, surgery went fine but I had to be thoroughly drugged before I went into anesthesia (Valium is my new friend!). my doctor had to remove what was found out to be a tumor and couple other things. Let's just say that I am now half a woman. I am still out of work for another week which means I am just sitting at home, bored out of my mind!! The when I woke up in recovery, I reevaluated things in my life and my attitude towards them. It is amazing how much surgery can change things. I woke up thinking about the relationships that I currently have and how involved I have or haven't been. The reason for all of this thinking is because my main worry before my surgery was that I would not wake from anesthesia. So when I woke, i vowed that I was going to strive to get the most out of my relationships and make each moment count.

I have being trying to reconnect and spend time with those that I feel are important in my life, but a certain individual is making it really difficult. (pretty sure that you know who you are) I cherish my friendships and only want them to grow with me as I grow.

Update

Yea there has been a lot going on in my life recently. I have been in and out of my doctor's office over the possibility of having a child some day. During all of this a mass the size of a tennis ball has been discovered and it is unknown at what it actually is. SO I do know that it would be really rare that it was cancer because I was screened for that, but it could be fibroid or endometryosis. So I am suppose to be going on vacation starting this Saturday and I was going to enjoy it. Well now it seems that I will be have surgery on the last day of my vacation. Then there is a chance that I may have to have a csection instead of the simple procedure. I am scared to death of being put to sleep or under any type of anesthesia. heaven help me!