A request

There is a website that I wish everyone could visit. I have not asked permission to list it but it is in my links and he can just get over it!!!! ;) but anyways this site is written and designed by a passionate writer and a great voice for the GLBT community. He writes from his soul and does so without a care as to what others think. He has asked for some stories and experiences from the GLBT community and I want to help get it out there. The site is www.morethangay.com and I just ask that you stop and take a look.

Like a gentle breeze

These are the moments that I wish could last forever. Just laying there in your arms and feeling your warmth. It soothes me like a gentle breeze. It is funny to think that a person can just feel love flowing from another person but it is possible.

I cherish these moments. But it saddens me to think that one day it may just end. We all have to face the inevitable. For now I guess I can just live in these moments and enjoy them while I can.

I love you, then now and forever.

Childish, maybe

It may seem childish or it may seem silly but I it was the only thing that I could think to do to make you understand part of what I felt. Actually I really didn't plan anything at all just fell asleep after being up all day but still I seemed to "forget" to set my alarm or turn my ringer back on. So sub-consciously maybe it wasn't so accidental. Hell I don't even know. All I know now is that I feel maybe you think it was or something cause I haven't been able to get you to respond to me or even talk since. Shall I start from the beginning?

See there was this day that Ashley and I was going to see you and spend some much needed time with you but it didn't happen. I know that i told you it was alright but it really it wasn't. The reason I was hurt. But who am I to tell you no? I mean If I had then I wouldn't have felt right when we would have came over cause the whole time I would felt like unwanted guests. I just think that it was wrong to set a "date" with us considering we haven't seen each other in a long time and then essentially blow it off. I mean I know that you didn't really blow it off per se but still just felt like it. It was like I/We weren't as important as this new person. Just the way I felt but did not tell you for the reason I explained before.

Now I know this doesn't justify anything and like I said my actions and thoughts were probably childish. But it has been bothering me ever since. Then I seen you the other day but I couldn't say anything when you past cause my attention had to be else where. Just really hope that you aren't thinking I am trying to blow you off.

I tried getting a hold of you this past week but nothing, nada. Well then I decided to make a trip on the Internet and see what currently has your passion. I read the last post and even though I am not 100% sure it was even about me, it got me thinking that i needed to explain current actions and offer some sort of apology.

An apology for letting parts of our friendship slip away even though it was never my intention. For acting childish when you had better things to do with your time than to pacify me. Apologize for acting with jealousy and part fear. I have been recently thinking that I have no clue what is going on in your life and haven't since I left so how could I possibly be involved now? So I am willing to admit that yes, I have dropped the ball. Maybe it is too late for me to start taking part responsibility for this but feel part now that I am.

I have always wanted to be a part of your life just now I am not sure that I am even wanted there.

So it would seem that Obama has won the Democratic ticket but he did not win the popular vote. I am kinda saddened that alot of Americans could not rise above voting for a woman. I really hope that Clinton runs on his ticket cause she has a lot to offer and it isn't over

The Cost of Living

Every where I turn it seems that the cost of something is going up. Currently gas prices are outrageous. It cost me 60 dollars to fill up my car! I only work at walmart and considering that I have to travel back and forth from fern valley rd and work everyday i am having to decide what I can go without just to get gas. Then they are talking on the news about TARC raising their fares. Well I guess we all knew that was coming since diesel cost more than gas but it is still cheaper than getting gas. Well I received a letter in the mail yesterday telling me that my tuition is going up to almost 400 dollars more a quarter, My current student loans barely cover my tuiton now and I can forget about it covering any other school related expenses.

Now since everything seems to be going up why can't we get a cost of living raise? Seriously! How can the government or businesses expected us to pay all these increases when we aren't getting an adjustment to our pay? I shouldn't have to choose between food or gas or school for that matter. It just feels like everyday we are struggling just to survive.

What is wrong with our country?