HURT

It appears that another of my post have created controversy and words to be said that we unkind to say the least. To call yourself my friend and then not understand what I write about or why I write is a sort of contradiction. I never personally attacked you( and you know who you are). but you took it that way. Wait, why am I writing anything to you when you aren't even probably going to read this anymore? Anyways
Like I was saying. When I write what I write I am not trying to offend or hurt anyone especially those that I thought were close to me. I also use discretion when addressing certain matters because somethings shouldn't be addressed over a blog but maybe more in an email or in person. I should understand, I guess, that others will not have the same discretion that I have but it still pisses me off.
Back to being hurt, which guess implies that I am back to being a "victim". If this is what you want to say I am doing then fine. There is nothing that I can do to change your fucking mind. For those of you that do not know what the hell I am talking about then let me explain my side and the reason I am a so called "victim".
Because I choose to write and vent on here some of my writing seems to give off the impression to certain parties that I am just trying to play the victim. Well I am not and have better things to do with my time. Well that is not a very good explanation but the best i can give under these circumstances.
Why am I hurt? Hm..... well lets see. To hear, rather read, the words that I read with the tone that they portrayed from someone that I thought was my friend just totally took me for a loop. I don't think I have ever been so stunned in my entire life. To see that the one I used to talk to about everything and vice versa just unleash what appears to be built up something, just crushed me and brought me to the point of tears. Now I am stuck with the possibility that the one I thought was the real them was just a front. A lying front masquerading around as the true authentic them. I know that they had walls and barriers the have up for protection but i Thought i was passed a few of them and seen a glimpse of the real them. Well i was wrong
Here i thought that i would have a person i could confide in and be a friend like I knew he could be. Wait yea i should have known better. But there is nothing left for me to do but just try to pick up the pieces... (Yea I know, back to playing my role of victim)