It has been a year since I started this blog and I still have some of the old post on here.
I guess you would say that I wasn't committed to this blog and I guess that you would be right.
But as I was thinking about my old posts I started thinking about what I had accomplished and what I had lost this year. Needless to say I think I started the year off better than I am ending it.
All the friendships that I thought I had have totally flown out the window and I still only have that one friend I have had since freshman year and the newest one that I made in 2004 at work. But I guess that just shows i am not worried about how many friends I have. The way I see it I can have all the hugest number of friends but how of them would actually be a true friend? I mean I rather have two or three true to life friends then like twenty fake ones. It takes a lot to be my friend I think. I expect support in a hard situation or a shoulder to cry on. I expect my friends to tell me when I am heading down a dark path. I expect my friends to rely on me and call me when they need a shoulder to cry on. I expect my friends to understand and accept the hard hurtful truth from me when I am trying to help them. So yea I guess I expected too much out of the other friendships I had in the beginning but only the strongest survive so I think I beat the house in the end.