It has been a year since I started this blog and I still have some of the old post on here.
I guess you would say that I wasn't committed to this blog and I guess that you would be right.
But as I was thinking about my old posts I started thinking about what I had accomplished and what I had lost this year. Needless to say I think I started the year off better than I am ending it.
All the friendships that I thought I had have totally flown out the window and I still only have that one friend I have had since freshman year and the newest one that I made in 2004 at work. But I guess that just shows i am not worried about how many friends I have. The way I see it I can have all the hugest number of friends but how of them would actually be a true friend? I mean I rather have two or three true to life friends then like twenty fake ones. It takes a lot to be my friend I think. I expect support in a hard situation or a shoulder to cry on. I expect my friends to tell me when I am heading down a dark path. I expect my friends to rely on me and call me when they need a shoulder to cry on. I expect my friends to understand and accept the hard hurtful truth from me when I am trying to help them. So yea I guess I expected too much out of the other friendships I had in the beginning but only the strongest survive so I think I beat the house in the end.

I wish that people would just get over themselves.
I wish that we as humans could learn to love and live together with everyone.
I wish that everyone could be accepted for who they are and not seen as a "sickness"

I thought we were the loving and caring species?
I mean if that were true then why are there hate crimes?
Why are there murders? rapes? kidnappings?
Is the human race just totally uncappable of love and acceptance?

Why should some of my friends have to be afraid of being themselves?
Afraid that if their true self were seen they would be ridiculed and singled out.
Afraid that if they showed their true self certain rights would be withheld from them.
Doesn't this kind of behavior prove that some classes of people aren't even seen as people or even treated the same as others?


I just want to know what the world has come to
I just want to know why I should raise a child in a world like ours
Where so many are hurt because others are afraid.

Ok so I haven't been so faithful to my blog. I promise this time things will be different,i have my internet and computer back so hey I can access this all the time. Can you forgive? Well if you don't I really don't care because once again this site isn't for your sake it is for mine!!
Some words of advice. If you are going to make comments to people that are totally disrespectful and racist in nature don't get pissed when that person starts going off. Common sense right? Right! I mean why are you going to get pissed when you are the one that made the stupid ass comments in the first place? Just thought I would throw that out there.
So Christmas is upon us. One more week and the hype will be all over. My only gripe about Christmas is this. I am not a really religous person by far. I mean I have my beliefs, but the meaning of Christmas is no longer the meaning that it was suppose to be. Feel me?! Christmas was suppose to be the celebration of Christ's birth but it isn't any more. Now it is all about buying buying and spending spending. Gotta have a PS3 or a ninendo wii, or whatever the hot items are. I think that everyone(who believes in the birth of Christ) should stop and think really long and hard about how they are celebrating the holiday. Pay attention to yourselves and see if you have lost the meaning of Christmas some where in the hustle and bustle. If you have maybe you should take the time to celebrate and remember what it is all about.
One last thing. I work for wal-Mart and contrary to popular belief I will be saying Merry Christmas, I always have. My outlook is this if you do not celebrate Christmas because of your religion or what not then politely inform the cashier that you don't or something other that getting offended. We do not know your religion or background and will not get upset if your were to correct us. Well Merry Christmas everyone.