My heart still flutters when I see you or hear your voice.
I still get those butterflies in my stomach thinking of you.
I can only smile when you are on my mind.
But this where you will only be.
What could have been if I had just taken that step...
I wonder every now and then if I made the right choice.

SO Chris this is to you..
you are the only one that ever tags except helen every once in a while.
I am not sure why you are always wanting to see what I write
I am not even sure you know exactly what I am writing about.
But I am glad you read this
I am glad that you take the time out of your day to comment.
so thank you

Ummm... There isn't much to write about but if I don't update regularly then I get in trouble by SOMEONE....... So I am updating. FINALLY, Christmas is over. And it is about time,.

SO this is just to wish everyone a Merry Christmas!!!

A rush of nervousness rushes thru me as I gaze over at you.
Your gentle and caring demeanor causes my heart to race.
What is it about you that causes all the color to rush to my cheeks?
Maybe it is your caring attitude
Or maybe it is just your personality?
Well whatever it is don't change it because it is working.
IT is working on me, and it is working on others.
I can only smile when you look my way because words escape me.
Then the thoughts and ideas start rushing to my head.
I wonder what could be or what would have it been like,
For see I will never know what could have been.
So for now all I can do is wonder and wonder if you ever do the same.

Marriage is everyone's goal in life
But not everyone knows the rights.
You have the right to disagree or to even squabble over the little things.
You don't have the right to harm the one you love
NO matter how mad they make you!
You have the right to burn dinner occasionally.
You don't have the right to scorch it on purpose.
You have the right to your own private time.
You don't have the right to make that all the time.
You have the right to be stubborn.
You don't have the right to be stubborn all the time.
You have the right to be wrong.
You don't have the right not to admit when you have been.
Most of all you have the right to be loved unconditionally.
But you don't have the right to not return the love.
Marriage is about love and trust.
Marriage is about understanding and forgiveness.
So know your rights,and be true to your heart.

Dad's Song
This song is for you. I want you to feel it in your heart.
For you to know that we're together when we're apart.
Ever and ever sharing a love so bold that toches the depths
of our souls.
This song is for you to lift your spirits when you are blue
Please feel we're together when we're apart be secure
with this knowledge in your heart.
There can be no tomorrow without yesterday....(unfinished)

Congratulations

Congratulations pal
Congratulations buddy
Congratulations friend

Congratulations on your new found happiness
Congratulations on your rediscovered love
Congratulations on taking that first step

I offer a few words of advice
I offer a few words of learned wisdom
I offer a few words of caution and hesitation

Don't leap blindly off that cliff
Don't forget to be true to yourself
Remember to give only your love
Remember to take only her love

Take your time
Don't rush

A heart should never be broken
A love should never be rushed
Happiness should never be forced
You should never feel alone

Butterfly

Butterfly
Beautiful butterfly with gracious movement
Attractive colors amazingly silent
Spread your wings little butterfly
Ever changing butterfly with graceful flights

Didn't start this way did you, Butterfly?
You were same as your caterpillar friends
Couldn't set yourself apart Butterfly

You took the step to be unique
Emerging from your cacoon
Emerging as a vivid butterfly

I am this butterfly
Ever changing, growing more beautiful
Shedding my shell emergin brand new

Will you see me as this butterfly
or
The everyday plain caterpillar no
Different than you?

Entrust your hand to me
and close your eyes

Let me kiss your eyelids
and I will heal your pain
Sleep, please, be at ease...

I want to feel reassurance that
parting with fear has the same sorrow for everyone,
as does being wrapped up in perplexity

If everyone could realize the ineffectiveness of fighting
then shining sunlight would ascend to us
Until that time, I will pray, so...

The morning light has the scent of hope
Flowing into the colorful stream

All right, our fingertips touch the handle
We'll open the door to the future together

The echoing sounds of happy bells
And the winged angel's song is being sung

Ah, this eternal love continues
To believe that you are near me

But even when I am crushed inside
I still love your frequent smiles

The most important words
Come from inside the heart

If we attack the rage and sadness together
Everything will be okay

Ah, to walk on this eternal road
Somethings are still unclear

Continuing on to our future...

My heart was swimming
in words gathered by the wind
My voice bounded into
a cloud-carried tomorrow

My heart trembled
in the moon-swayed mirror
Soft tears
spilled with a stream of stars

Isn't it beautiful?
If we could walk, hand in hand,
I'd want to go
to your town, your home, in your arms

I dream of being
against your chest
my body in your keeping
disappearing into the evening

Words halted by wind
are a gentle illusion
A tomorrow torn by clouds is
the voice of a distant place

My heart that had been
in a moon-blurred mirror that flowed
Those stars that trembled and spilled
cannot hide my tears

Isn't it beautiful?
If we could walk, hand in hand,
I'd want to go
to your town, your home, in your arms

My dream of
your face
that I softly touch
melts in the morning

This is for anyone who has been hurt or offended by my thoughts. This is not my intention. I just wanted this to be my spot to unload and pretend that I can write. Somethings maybe true some maybe fiction. Ask and I may tell. So before you assume what I write is all true about my life maby you should find out from the author.

Waves of energy
Waves of excitement
Waves of enjoyment and what could be.
Waves rushing to my hand as yours brushes mine
How I long to grab it and feel those waves again
But would you let me
Or deny those waves to me?
Your hand brings a rush of new feelings that I never experienced
But the waves are what I enjoy the most

My wings have been broken
My soul can no longer soar
My heart no longer beats.

I have been restrained
Restrained from happiness
Restrained from loving
Restrained from being loved.

How I long to love
How I crave that loving touch
The type of touch you can only get from being loved

I am not allowed happiness
I am not allowed to be loved
I am not allowed to love
I am being denied these pleasures