Life is so short as I was shown recently in the past week
Things seem to change and some just cease to exists
It isn't until this things disappear that I realize how much it affects me and my life
Even from losing an associate to losing a friendship.
It makes you think about your life and if you are really making the best of it
I thought I was until I realized that I wasn't living it to it's fullest potential
So I have decided to make some changes with my life and how i live it
Some of the changes i plan on making I should have made a long time ago and some are just recent realizations that I have had. I am scared of change but I also know that change is needed
I may lose some friends and relationships along the way but in the end what I will gain will make up for it. I have to stop living in the past and start moving towards the future. That can only happen if I live for the moment and make decisions that will have a positive affect on my future. Life is too short for me to do the things I use to in the past and I want my life to mean something to someone. And that someone has to be me before it can be anyone else. If I have made my relationships with certain people as strong as I think I have then they should survive but I know in my heart that some will fail me because I have failed them. Those that survive will be the ones that help me with my long term goal and those are the only ones i need,
because i will never know when my life will come to it's abrupt end.

what happens when we run out of things to talk about?

i am ready to say how i really feel so are you ready to listen?
Are you ready to deal with the drama and issues i have?
Can you handle me and the way I am?
How much do you really know about me and the type of person i am?
well you be there to catch me when i fall?
or be the support i need cause i will really it in the end
Can you be patient with me cause it will take time
I know what i want
Are you sure that you will be ready and that you will still want it

So it is like five in the mornin and I can't sleep. So I decided to make a post since haven't done it in a while. so here goes
Why is it that when you need help the most all of a sudden no one is there to help you. I mean i thought friends were suppose to help out. I know that some decisions I have to make on my own or visa versa with everyone else but when you ask for help i mean someone should help if they can. I mean they could do anything from being a shoulder to lean on or just give advice.